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Sunday, December 12, 2004
 
Mates,

Blogging may not be the best use of time in the world, but there are some inherent qualities undeniable. An online diary never gets lost, and serves as a timely reminder when you need it.

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Tuesday, May 27, 2003 - chernobill.blogspot.com

8 months on. Watch out for this space again! :). Liverpool lost the title race. War in Iraq came and went, and of course, my graduation. A nostalgic feeling, back in Malacca. Probably for the last time in my life will i ever be with 300 other students that i share my life with for 3 years, in the same physical location. I nodded when Guju and Tubs said, convocation is nothing more than an opportunity to rekindle lost memories. Nothing more than that, but worth everything ill pay in my book. The phletora of feeling in that room that morning, is unmistakenably one of unbridled joy. And i was lucky enough to be along for the ride.

The company that remains of Garage, Guju and meself are picking up. Business is progressing, but at a rather stuttering pace. There are two reasons for this. Insufficient push for sales, and inefficient handling of operations. Those problems may be deep-rooted, in our lack of manpower, or is it our 11am morning rise? :). Nonetheless, we are certain that this will be successful, irrespective. With reinforcements to come in the form of Tubs, Thiru and Low, it can only get better. Just need to hang on.

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My mates,
We came from a subletted office to our own office lot.
We came from a 3 persons company to a company of 12.
We came from paying ourselves nothing to paying ourselves something.
We came from making decisions for our own asses to deciding the career of our staffs.
We came with a reputation of 22 year olds fresh grads with unrealistic dreams, to people thinking we're 35 years old, been in the business for ages, and placing their trust in us.
And this is a gross understatement of what we have achieved so far. We know this.


Mates,
I know this is what you want.
I know this is what i want as well.
And i know while the ship may be sailing smoothly now, it may all go awry within weeks.
The converse is true too.
The journey however, is as important as the destination.
Above all, i know achieving success in our own company, built with our own bare hands, without external funding or foreign help, is what we have always been dreaming of.

Without bragging, surely not many twenty four year olds out there can be in a position like ours? And take immense personal satisfaction from what we have achieved thus far?

The journey is long, and challenges are numerous. There will be more and higher mountains ahead. But trust me, trust yourself, but more importantly trust the principles that this company has been built upon. There is integrity, honesty, competency, flair and camaraderie in this institution. Let's keep it going.

Let's not do a Beatles. God knows how much i love them, but even i think they were stupid to have given up on the best jobs in the world. For some stupid squabbling after the death of manager Brian Epstein.
Dont do a Paul McCartney going, "I didnt know what to do after Beatles. It was what i've always wanted. Beyond the money and the glamour, all i wanted was to play rock and roll with John, George and Ringo, for the fans. Now its all gone, and I'd be lying if i say i'm not lost."

Two years from now, we may all be looking back at this post and going, fucking A, we're still around, and look at where we are now.

Or we may loathe to click on this blog, avoiding this post, because shit happens. And we're kicking ourselves wondering why we let the opportunity go?

Choice never leaves the individual. It still remains in our hands.

Let's keep our hands held together.

12/12/2004


Saturday, December 11, 2004
 


Ticket to Ride


I think I’m gonna be sad,
I think it’s today, yeh,
The girl that’s driving me mad,
Is going away.
She’s got a ticket to ride,
She’s got a ticket to ri - hi - hide,
She’s got a ticket to ride, but she don’t care.
She said that living with me,
Is bringing her down yeh,
For she would never be free when I was around.
She’s got a ticket to ride,
She’s got a ticket to ri - hi - hide,
She’s got a ticket to ride, but she don’t care.
I don’t know why she’s riding so high,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me.
I think I’m gonna be sad,
I think it’s today, yeh,
The girl that’s driving me mad,
Is going away.
She’s got a ticket to ride,
She’s got a ticket to ri - hi - hide,
She’s got a ticket to ride, but she don’t care.
I don’t know why she’s riding so high,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me.
Before she gets to saying goodbye,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me.
She said that living with me,
Is bringing her down yeh,
For she would never be free when I was around.
She’s got a ticket to ride,
She’s got a ticket to ri - hi - hide,
She’s got a ticket to ride, but she don’t care.
My baby don’t care, my baby don’t care.




Sometimes life itself is a serendipity. You dont know what's in your mind, what you want, but a song keeps playing in your head. So you take it out, you listen to it, and you realize what it is. Or isnt it? So you've got a ticket to ride. Good lord.


Irrelevant ramblings aside.

Do you know that the biggest media coup of Tony Blair's career that paved his way into British Prime Ministership is the Sun Newspaper (Rupert Murdoch)'s overnight abandonment of John Major's Conservative Party for Tony Blair's (New) Labour back in 1997? So much so that the Sun had the temerity to write "It was the Sun Wot Won It" on the day after the election results were announced.

Do you know?
You did not, that's right.

The funny thing is, neither do I.
What's funnier, is that most people dont as well.
Because, It's a Bloody Lie.

So let's correct Mcmillan's famous quote a little.
"There are lies, damn lies, and Blair & Murdoch's Sun!"
=)


Tuesday, November 30, 2004
 
This is it. The final 100m stretch to the 1500m run.
27 days to go before the start of MMU Worlds 2005, and 34 days to go before our debating appearance in the Grand Final of the MMU Worlds 2005.

I apologize for any stoppages in blog post from this point hence. Or my insular self over the next month or so. I really do wanna hang out and chill with you.

But, this time, is for real. This time, it is personal. It will hurt me as a person if i am not debating in that MMU Worlds Grand Final.

And that's that.

Love you,
Bill


Monday, November 29, 2004
 
Love is something everyone wants, but not everyone is willing to embrace.
Its almost as if we want to love selectively, and be able to go on a holiday away from loving if we choose to. Just like the food we lucky urban folks have, we want a wide ala-carte option, we want instant delivery, we want guarantee on food quality, and we want a finger to point to in case our coffee's not black enough.

I'm sorry to say that cannot be the case, unless you're paying for love.
You cant have your cake and want to eat it too.

Loving someone is a wholesome experience. You cannot only want the night kisses without the occassional fights. You cannot only want to share your life together without giving up some of your individuality. You cannot only want the thrill of being in love without fearing the day you may lose that love or that person you love. You cannot take without giving.
Most importantly, you cannot be in love without feeling vulnerable.

It all comes in a package. Unlike Thundercat toys, each item Is Not sold separately.


Which brings me to my second point. Just because you are vulnerable in love, does not mean you lose yourself. You always have options, options never desert you. You can choose to be in love, or not to be. If you think the relationship has turned sour, then get off it. There is never a time when you should feel compelled to stay in a relationship beyond your will. Of course, situation is slightly complicated with marriage and children. But there surely is no dead end.

Whatever you do however, dont do things half-heartedly and indecisively. Not only will you fail to experience the wholesome experience of it all, but it'll also blow up spectacularly in your face.

So here's cheers to no fear.
Get your shit organized and things will be alright.

There are bigger things out there than to just get worried about this. Like the Sudan crisis for example =).




Wednesday, November 24, 2004
 
hello!

I'm back from UK.
let me brag a little.

I had the opportunity to open an Oxford IV Quarterfinals debate as the Prime Minister of the House in the Oxford Union Debating Chamber. I am now in the esteemed league of people like Bill Clinton, Yasser Arafat, Gandhi, Winston Churchill, and others, who have addressed the house in the Union chamber!

Absolutely brilliant.

Will blog more of the UK saga when i have time over the weekend.

Cheers dude!

Bill

Wednesday, November 10, 2004
 
Hello World!

This is the first message blogged from this spanking new Ibook! =)

Also,
I'm leaving to UK tomorrow. Two debate competitions beckon at opposite weekends of 11/11/2004 and 22/11/2004. Midweek entertainment will be served at Liverpool, with John, Paul, George and Ringo.
Imagine me at Cavern Club! Actually, don't!

Will tell you more from the Queen's land.

Enjoy the celebrative holidays!

Love, lots of it,
Bill
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
 
The presentation that i alluded to in my earlier post is happening this afternoon.
I'm going to go in there with my guns blazing. Just watch.
Work, which is going on pretty smoothly, may it continue that way.

On other fronts, my family.
Two weeks after my grandma's stroke, my grandad is now admitted into hospital. There is a growth in his liver. I pray that its not malignant. Awaiting test results.

My grandma has been discharged. She's at home. She's dejected, because she sees no hope in life. Bereft of movement in her upper left torso, she cannot leave her bed. Her legs are marginally stronger compared to two weeks ago, but recovery isnt guaranteed. When i visited her yesterday, i can sense a feeling of forlorn in her. That she has given up hope. And i felt really really down.

I feel really down because i'm helpless when i'm with her. I see her, and i just wanna hug her and make her feel loved. I want to tell her its alright, but i can't bear to tell her that. How do i tell someone that she may not be able to leave her bed again for the rest of her life?

My family have thought of physio work. But there isnt anyone willing to take up the task. I'm torn, torn because i wanna just drop everything im doing now and just chill with her for the next 6 months, goading and encouraging her to a mobile state again. But i too want a career, and this career takes up shit loads of my time, and will continue to be so.

And my dad aint understanding of this dilemma. Had an argument with him over the weekend.
I'll have to make a decision if im shifting back to Klang to be with my grandma. Probably do travelling from Klang to Damansara everyday. Will talk to my parents, and get their input.


Dont you just adore this song?

Ode to my family
Understand the things I say
Don�t turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn�t disagree
D�you see me, d�you see
Do you like me, do you like me standing there
D�you notice, d�you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care

Unhappiness, where�s when I was young
And we didn�t give a damn
�cause we were raised
To see life as a fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Ol he liked me, does anyone care

Understand what I�ve become
It wasn�t my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you, I miss
�cause I liked it, I liked it
When I was out there
D�you know this, d�you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care

Unhappiness was when I was young
And we didn�t give a damn
�cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Ol he liked me, does anyone care

Does anyone care


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